day 085

we got dumped on last night. it took nearly 2 hours to clear the driveway enough to get the car out. aside from the back breaking labor, it was a beautiful morning. i was shoveling long enough to see the sunrise over the bay.

i made it into work and had the studio to myself today. it was interesting not having any company in the room. there were aspects of it that were great. i didn't have to keep an eye on where and what people were doing. i didn't have to cater to anyone. i didn't have try and cram other work into the 5 minute slots when models are changing. i didn't have to do anything for anyone except myself.

now i just had to figure out what it was i wanted to do. i spruced up the space a little bit. putting away some boxes that had been sitting in the way for too long. did a double check of backed up files. cleaned out my inbox, although there is still some work to do there.

there is also still some work to be done with sprucing up the studio. but i have a total of 6 days to get that done before production begins again. i need to spread out the work. that was the nice thing about shooting AV and having people in the studio all day. the day flew by, there was always work to be done and it never felt like time was wounded in battle and crawling to safety. that was more me after some of the more strenuous days.

i tried to work on a creative spread today. one of lisa that started by just showing pants being put on, then a close up of the hand in pocket, then a close up of the arm all tatted up. then finally a full body shot. i was hoping that all the previous images would read androgynous. and by the final image you would come to realize it was a female. but i couldn't seem to make it work. i wanted all the images to be on one spread, but while i am writing this i think they would work better as separate images shown on the same wall. i think with the borders, it would prevent the viewer from jumping to the end and ruining what surprise there may be. it wasn't gelling for me earlier, but maybe i will give it another shot tomorrow sometime.

most of my day has been that way. i have somewhat been anticipating nicole being gone. although i miss her being with me, her warm body at night and kissing her forehead in the morning. i was somewhat looking forward to this time alone. i wanted my selfish me time. i was thinking that this would be the time that i would really stretch my wings creatively. i would put to film/paper/whatever everything that had been boiling up inside since i started working so many hours.

not the case. not that i don't have the drive. it is more that i don't have the concept, the idea, the creative. i am just dry. usually when i exercise i get a rush of creative energy; not the case tonight. i ran at the gym and did weights, but nothing sprouted in my head.

i did snag a photo of what nicole's b-day present was. this is not the final. what is left to be is A) framing it, and B) writing the corresponding reactions. i'll explain:

A - what i would like to do is find an antique surface that i could mount the images to. i would mount them in the same way they are mounted now, with six point creating the angles. instead of push-pins i would like to use rusty nails or something metallic and weathered. the concept would be the same, with the same piece of twine running the entire length of the frame like shown. i would also take off the "handle" to the clips. by "handles" i mean the pieces of the clip you actually squeeze to open it.

B - the original idea was to hand write the corresponding reaction nicole and i were trying to convey in each photo. then i thought it might be fun for her and i to write out our own reactions in the photos. so, i am waiting fro her to get back in town and we will fill them in together.

i am going to play and maybe put something together creatively. good night.