so i still have nicole's b-day present up in the house where it was originally hung.
i thought that it would be a painful reminder after we split up. it has been the complete opposite. it has actually been a pleasant reminder of how we were happy. and a reminder of how she could make me happy, and how i could somehow make her smile.
in a broader sense, it is a reminder of how you can find happiness with another person. whether it be romantic or platonic, just how others in our life can bring out such candid happiness. how those goofy little moments are often the ones that stick late into life.
i went digging back though some of the photos that landed on the cutting room floor. i guess the outtakes of sorts. not that we were shooting with a specific end result in mind at the time.
the shots make me smile with as much sincerity now as they did then.
i guess i share these, and think about these, for more reasons than just seeing them everyday when i come home. i guess i am still working though what happened between nicole and i in my head. i am still trying to figure out just how it is that i feel. i still have yet to come to any internal resolution.
i feel like i am living in this mental limbo. i can't seem to stumble upon inspiration, or even muster action. kind of blah in a sense. not too thrilled with that fact.
which is probably why this post is short and...well...blah
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